Needle in the Hay

I am looking for something a bit different than most of the other guys on here. I have a particular interest in a certain kind of man that is quite common but, by their nature, very difficult to find. I’m looking for a self-loathing closet homosexual. I am 6’2”, 25 years old, 190 lbs (all muscle), and very well endowed. I want a guy around my age who is totally ashamed of his sexuality, because nothing screams “tough all-american man” like someone terrified that their filthy secret will get out. If you are married that is a total plus. I envision us getting together in a seedy motel on the edge of town. You’ll lie about your name as you look at the floor, too disgusted to look me in the eyes, your face already stained with tears from your silent sobbing in the car. When we get to it you will take me from behind. “I’m a man.” you’ll stutter through shaking fits of shame and pleasure “I’m a man.” repeating it over and over as though it could erase the reality of the moment. When it’s all over I’ll tell you how wonderful it was, which will infuriate you. “Get the fuck out of here you faggot” you’ll say as our eyes meet for the first time of our brief encounter. I’ll leave to the sight of you praying on the side of the bed, begging for forgiveness.

God, I’m getting hard just thinking about it.